Not entirely sure when it was that I decided Maui would be the be all, end all of my Hawaiian escapade; perhaps, it was when I took a quiz on Facebook that proclaimed "Maui is where you belong." In all honesty, Maui was anti-climactic. Don't get me wrong: seeing Haleakala and Hana were two biggies to cross off the Hawaiian bucket list and spending quality time with my sister was priceless. Pau Hana felt bittersweet: not quite the beginning, not quite the end.
Let me explain -- here in Hawai'i, Hana means work. What on a map looks deceptively simple, no more taxing than a quick drive over the Pali to Kailua in O'ahu, ended up a 3 hour crawl. But it wasn't without it's rewards -- we listened to amazing music, ate killer banana bread and "coconut crack" (razor thin sliced coconut pieces drenched in rock sugar) jumped into a crystal blue lagoon fed by a 20-foot waterfall and wiggled our toes in black and red sanded beaches.
Why is it then, that the greatest satisfaction I found in Maui was on Friday, our rest day? After an awkwardly-executed detour through Lahaina (parking = bane of my existence) we arrived at a cinnamon sugar beach overlooking Molokai and I was at peace. Nothing fancy, no bells, whistles or 4x4 trek, just a simple soft beach, each lap of the surf against the sand like perfume to my frazzled, stressed-from-driving psyche. I don't even remember the name of that beach, just how content I felt napping in the sun.
Jason Mraz has a song called "No Doubling Back" that goes:
and i wonder, wonder which one of us
is gonna state the obvious
and i wonder if you already know
that i gotta let you go
i know this ain't the way i planned it
i guess i ain't the great romantic
and i'm not doubling back now
no doubling back
doubling back now...
When we reached Hana that's exactly what we did - we turned around and drove back the way we came. If I had it to do over I would go the long southerly route back ... but If I ever do it again, it'll be in a car full of drivers. :)
It seems time to start thinking of new goals to accomplish, destinations to explore, dreams to pursue and fears to conquer. Although I can't quite pinpoint the current source of dissatisfaction, each day is an opportunity for creation, love and excitement.
This Wednesday begins my month long Summer Education. I'll be taking voice (eek!) and have promised to call my sister and sing to her voicemail with what I learn as well as a substitute teaching certification course that will (hopefully) help me make my way to teaching English in Japan next year. I guess we somehow make new goals for ourselves without knowing it. I leave you with this quote by Anais Nin: "Dreams pass into the reality of action. From the actions stems the dream again; and this interdependence produces the highest form of living. "